the things are going as they should go.

i named the state of mind - NON-EGO. 
it's the most  clear term for now a days people.

the web site name is the same one (now it's only in russian):

 hope i could tell u everything when and if we will meet each other.
it's so hard to tell it in few lines.
now i'm doing it during already 2 years in russian for russian seakers of freedom.: telling and helping their practice. the course is: "the basic texts of all religions and the way to accomplish them".
now it's only in mp3-format but may be soon we will make a text (book) in russian and then in english.

now only the very first lection is taped (of course in russian): 

u also could read some thoughts in enlish in lj-comunity:

the nearest plan is:

1) "Abhidharmakosha" (ended)
2) Tsonkhapa "Lam Rim Chen Mo" (almost ended the half of the text)
 3) Apochryphic New Testaments
4) Canonic New Testaments
5) Tantra Sutras
6) "Upanishadas"

if u are able to understand russian u could listen the course right now (we put the new lectures  soon after they happen):

we plan to make it not only in russia. i could come in your country and make a short variant of the course.




all religions, traditions, schools, teachers, masters... -- are only the preparation for real work on ego-mind. ego-mind is the same of every people. this is why  it is the final work of person itself, of his mind on itself. and during it you will have not other illusions but only one, the last one -- the source of all other illusions -- your own ego-mind. 
and only then you will see that there are no different religions, traditions, schools, teachers, masters...

in russian:



eternally many times sages who got dao said but not understood by others who still can not get freedom from allussions of their ego-mind:

there is unactivity and no unactivity in dao, there is activity and is no activity in dao, that is why this is a dao.

that is why it's named a dao. but when one comes in dao, so nothing to talk about because one who enter dao became dao itself, so for what dao should talk about itself? to whom? what is the purpose of talking about?

dao is fullness because dao is not empty, and dao is emptyness because dao is not full. that is why it's dao and one names it dao...

to enter dao is not lucky, as not to enter dao. because there is no luck in dao, as there is no bad luck. that is why it's dao and one names it dao...

do many daos exist? no, dao is already dao, there is no many dao in it, as there is no some dao. there is only dao. dao is everything, and dao is nothing. you can not dao dao, as you can not undao dao. that is why it's dao and one names it dao...

(to be continued when translated from russian)

in russian:


why fools (weaks) are healthy but geniuses become crazy? weaks have no energy to go away from the road. buddha should become crazy if he would not become buddha. where he would give his energy to?

sansara does confuse you so much that, if you are able to see deepest, it's hard to stay normal: strong one is full of overflowing of energy, is becoming crazy. buddhas always risk.

weak (fool) is ugly, he can not change himself. strong (smart) one is beatifull, he can think, go new way, see new way. rich one could give away his wealth, pauper could give nothing.

at first you need ego, sharp as sword which strong one will throw away and will become modest, nobody, no-ego. modest and strong at the same time it is paradoxal, it's nonsense for ego, and ego dissolves, opens: so nobody could be ego, there is no paradox, no ever the process of realisation of the paradox, nobody who could realise the paradox...enlightment.

only the one who does not believe to anybody and in nothing but only in the truth know the truth: there are no gurus, no religions, schools, nobody to look for, except yourself. the only thing you can do is to become buddha. The else is illusion. As well as how they will name buddha -- by buddha, jesus, mouhhamad, rama, krishna, zaratushtra, mahavira, mahatma, juda, orpheus, nobody, nothing.

the truth itself looks for you, but you have to be ready to meet it, to open yourself to it.

only buddha can say why he became buddha, how he became buddha, and what happen after he became buddha. and only another buddha can understand him. nobody else even will not listen to him, he is so ununderstandable, paradoxal, he is crazy in a croud of weak fools' opinion.

it's so easy to think that you bcame buddha but much more easiest to get enlightment.

the wise one is ready to loose everything for himself, the fool is ready to loose himself for his ridiculious illusions.

the truth is paradoxal fro weak one. weak is scared fool. paradox is the way of trith. it opens to strong one. strong one is fearless conqueror of himself. the knot of the truth can not be untied by weak one but can be choped up by sharp sword in a strong arm of kshatriya.

yoga-tantra is cruel, ego. ego is your enemy. there is no other enemies. tour "enemies" are your teachers ("preach for your enemies"). they teach you to renounce your ego. ego cheats you: "here they are your enemies, beat them all!". that is how your ego becomes stronger. weak one likes to win. but his victories are his defeats to his ego. strong one likes to win himself, it's the truth victories (the fool like to teach others, but intelligent one likes to study himself" (russian proverb). when you will see these ego games, you'll study by it, you'll broke the ego shell, and the truth will open: "atman is brahman". the ego is nothing but sansara, the sansara is in your nead. it's not an enemy but a good teacher: "sansara is nirvana". when you realise it, you'll smile to your ego like gratefull pupil and honorable conqueror.

that is all what is possible to say, and that is all what is possible to realise. one can say the same but by different words, trying to explain it many years. do not waste your time but make! live it, realising no-ego.
smile, buddha!

in russian:


the non-yoga practitioners are affraid of live and death, they need a fulcrum. they try to find it in vanish: in respect from other people (prestige, money, fame and so on), in self excuse, self blame, self cheating, in pleasure...but they do not find...

the truth is: there is no any fulcrum at all, nowhere. the only fulcrum that could be found in sansara is the realising and inner experience that there is not any fulcrum at all. and if and when you will realise it, you will get the chance to have the fulcrum for your yoga-tantra practice for a while, because later the ultima illusion will desapear too..

in russian:


there is the only and the one way to no-ego -- transformation of mind from ego to no-ego.
it's the yoga way.
1) to clear physical body (veganship, fruit-eating, prana-eating).
2) to clear energy and by energy (pranayama).
3) to clear feelings and emotions: no-appriciation -- neutralism (there will be few posts about it in the lj)
4) to open chakras and to up the kundalini (kundalini-yoga).
when your sahasrara-chakra will exploided, it's almost enough to obtain no-ego, but just "mechanicaly": if your conscience is not ready to surrender to dissolvation of ego into nothing-eternity-reality, then nothing will changed, exceptthat you will just feel yourself happy or almost crazy.
5) the liberation (no-ego) itself is liberation of your mind (soul, spirit, ego) that is following from right understanding, right rush, absent of fear of everything, of reality, especially fear to loose yourself-ego. it's the most difficult. it's very simple. in common, the way is very simple. but in this sense the way is hard. simple and hard. simple to understand theoretically (by your mind) but hard to accomplish as your own experience. many people do not understand its simplicity. they just turn themself in many conceptions-theories.
but the point is liberation -- iberty from everything, it mean EVERYTHING: i, eego, religions, traditions, teachings, gurus, morality, amorality, education, illusions, etc., etc.)

no-ego is not moral or amoral, t's just out-of-moral: no-ego does not need to keep in mind ethics to be "good", no-ego is good just as it, deep inside.

the fear (to loos yourself) is the main obstacle to liberation. even if you became maser in yoga methods, and very near to no-ego, you still could be very affraid to loose yourself forever. the liberty is much more hard then death. the death is just loosing your body, changing external core. the liberty is loosing "you". you will never be never, nowhere, nohow...
in reality, you are not. "you" is illusion. but you are, you are still in sansara, sansara gives you the possibility "to exist".

in russian:


at the time i already was not practicing especially (when you free a special time and place for yoga practice), but the practice (kundalini and mental) goes without end, days and nights (even when you sleep).

it was evening, i was just reading a book, and was concentrating on ajna chakra as usual i did when reading, for more attention and speed of reading. plus i rotated energy (prana, qi, ki) by small circle 'ajna-sahasrara chakras' (up on back (kundalini's piece between them) and down on forehead). the circle is usual in qi-gong (between all chakras, and more bigger ones).


at first sahasrara chakra "exploided", but not as usually before, when i opened it by prana, but much-much stronger: it was like the prana switched on the chakra, and the energy of the light in sahasrara become more and more powerfull.
after it i was not able already even to read the book, the state of mind was so strange and unusual (and very pleased), so i was just followed what is happen. it was very unexpected but the state was deffinitelly "this".
everything was very quikly (just few seconds) and happened by itself without any my own efforts.
at once kundalini energy filled all kundalini channel: all chakras joined each other in one body (the whole kundalini channel became one energy rode). it was like you are an electric accumulator, and somebody just charges you more and more with energy.
the prana filled you more then you can get inside your body.
at very first moment when sahasrara chakra exploided, the eternal ectasy (and all other points:

) began and was enforcing itself each second.
one could only dream about such a state of conscience, but at the same time it's so strong and intense that you feel something like "hardness", but there is no desure to stop it at all. ther are no desires at all. even to drink and to eat many days and weeks.
slowly (after many days) you become able to "control" the state and be exernally like everybody. but at first you are almost paralised because of ecstasy and energy, in what your ego desolutes very quikly and desappears at all. you do not think about you as you. there is nobody. so nobody thinks about himself as himself. nobody. that is why there are no desires and needs.

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